hyperealistic is dead

hi, i'm dropping by to wish you a very good life ahead.

thank you to all bloggers, to all followers, to all readers, to all friends, and special thanks to rangga sastrowardoyo who introduced me to this blog world.

all the posts on this blog will stay.
it's kind of hyper stories of mine, i just.. can't erase them.
i will write another small details stories on another page.
you will find mine if you think you really know me.

this hyperealistic world was everything i dreamed, i needed, the real definition of a getaway, so thanks for being part of it.
i see you when i see you.

Y V ?

Orait, beberapa teman dekat mulai sering bertanya ada apa dengan huruf V dan huruf Y.
My zodiac is Virgo, that's why i love V. Beside that of course i am a female with that vagina thing. It's the simple answer for V. Saking senengnya gw sama huruf V ini, pernah gw dedikasiin satu hari dalam timeline gw ngetwit semua tentang V. Iya, sampai segitunya. Is that a problem for you?

What about Y.
Kalau dalam bahasa inggris, kita sering mempertanyakan suatu alasan dengan satu kata 'WHY'. To me i make it short as Y.
Beside that of course because i hate Yellow color. Tapi setahun belakangan ini sedang mencoba untuk gak punya rasa hate terhadap hal-hal yang memang gw sendiri sebenernya gak punya alasan kenapa harus gw benci.
And Y is also about you.
Yes, you. All my friends.

Jadi, tolong buat siapa pun, terutama yang berinisial V ataupun Y, gak usah ke-GR-an menganggap atau berasumsi kalau gw sangat pay attention to you for some emotional reasons. It's a totally wrong assumption.

I am O. I love V. As much as i love Y.
No more further question, ok?
Thank you.

talking colors

Red means blood.
Red ribbon.
Red bouquet.
Red sky.
Captured by infra red.

That is for our bloody engagement.
It was death that do us part.
And it is death that unites us again.

There is no other color then.
No violet.
No yellow.
Only red.

Red means violet and yellow.

selesai hujan tadi sore

ada
untuk tiada
hujan sesaat
entah indah
entah apa

hanya tertinggal dingin
menyisakan basah

kini aku memimpikan pelangi
agar bisa kuwarnai malam

virtual game

The illogical within the rational.
The irrational within the logical.
What kind of game are we playing?
A game without win or loss.

It's evil angel game.

Let me breathe in your dreams.
I'll be your dust. And your air. And your rain.
And you'll be my visible and invisible sight.
We don't need compliments.

You almost see me evil.
I almost see you angel.
Sometimes, i see you evil and you see me angel.

My voice on your lips.
Your whisper on my eyes.
Maybe we never truly virtual.
We were just too easy to catch.
But still, our words empty of reality.

No matter how illogical, no matter how irrational it will be, we are daring to try.
Welcome to this game.

song of my day. today. everyday.

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

....


i see you.
i feel you.
i heart you.
you got me at halo.

happy valentine.

Morning Note

from someone..

To the most beautiful woman in the world, my world.
To my heartbeat, to my love, to my tear in my eye, to that woman whose name is a part of every breath i take, to someone who makes me want nothing but her, to that person who suddenly, like a breeze entered my life and i felt rejuvenated.
To a woman called Oca Amarlis.. a very good morning.

thank God for giving me so much love, and am just about to cry now

something more, nothing more

To you:

Acceptance.
Understanding.
Life.

To you:

Love.
Pain.

Today, i try to type this simpler.
I live everywhere with both of you.
The hard reality of searching for something and nothing.
I'll enjoy this while it will last.

Now what?
You can't meet me. Both of you.

Not now.
Not ever.
I'm never yours.

Invisible party

Tomorrow 28.01.2011.
Maybe i'll meet you tomorrow.
What a beautiful day to celebrate.
Your birthday. Birth?
Will you feel your birth in hell?
Or heaven?
Or both?
Will it be hurting you?
It hurts me already.
When my words getting cold and unemotional, and suddenly something happened.
It's not as simple as a b c d, yet it all starts from a b c d.
And as you know, sometimes things are harder than words.
But words are all i have.
No, don't worry dear, i won't change a damn thing.
Some years. Some damn fuckin' years.
I just wanted you to be here. But you much prefer to be in hell.
Or heaven.
Or both.
You couldn't even give me a single word.
And you never heard a word i yelled every single minute.

We'll find each other. Maybe.
I don't know where.
I don't know how.
I'll be with you tomorrow.

see. feel. real.

Sometimes a simple word can mean a lot to someone.

The word like "hi.." can rise up your smile. Or the words "morning, my reality.." can make you blushed into pink. Or "you are beautiful" can change your whole attitude. Or "I hate you" can break your heart.

Word can inspire, encourage, and convey love. They can poke and prod and compel to action.

Someone said: i see you.
And i said: i see you too.

Familiar with that? yes, simple words taken from Avatar movie.

It was about connection. Cosmic connection? :)

See. Feel. Yes, sometimes connection can happens without a word.
You can see it. You can feel it. You just knew it. Universe send you messages with intangible words. Like in a middle of nowhere you see things and you dream about it and suddenly it's there. Is it a law of attraction, or what?

I have this cosmic connection. It's amazing. Yet it's a strange thing. Perfectly strange condition. Beautifully strange connection. Perfectly perfect :)