Friday, January 28, 2011

something more, nothing more

To you:

Acceptance.
Understanding.
Life.

To you:

Love.
Pain.

Today, i try to type this simpler.
I live everywhere with both of you.
The hard reality of searching for something and nothing.
I'll enjoy this while it will last.

Now what?
You can't meet me. Both of you.

Not now.
Not ever.
I'm never yours.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Invisible party

Tomorrow 28.01.2011.
Maybe i'll meet you tomorrow.
What a beautiful day to celebrate.
Your birthday. Birth?
Will you feel your birth in hell?
Or heaven?
Or both?
Will it be hurting you?
It hurts me already.
When my words getting cold and unemotional, and suddenly something happened.
It's not as simple as a b c d, yet it all starts from a b c d.
And as you know, sometimes things are harder than words.
But words are all i have.
No, don't worry dear, i won't change a damn thing.
Some years. Some damn fuckin' years.
I just wanted you to be here. But you much prefer to be in hell.
Or heaven.
Or both.
You couldn't even give me a single word.
And you never heard a word i yelled every single minute.

We'll find each other. Maybe.
I don't know where.
I don't know how.
I'll be with you tomorrow.

Monday, January 10, 2011

see. feel. real.

Sometimes a simple word can mean a lot to someone.

The word like "hi.." can rise up your smile. Or the words "morning, my reality.." can make you blushed into pink. Or "you are beautiful" can change your whole attitude. Or "I hate you" can break your heart.

Word can inspire, encourage, and convey love. They can poke and prod and compel to action.

Someone said: i see you.
And i said: i see you too.

Familiar with that? yes, simple words taken from Avatar movie.

It was about connection. Cosmic connection? :)

See. Feel. Yes, sometimes connection can happens without a word.
You can see it. You can feel it. You just knew it. Universe send you messages with intangible words. Like in a middle of nowhere you see things and you dream about it and suddenly it's there. Is it a law of attraction, or what?

I have this cosmic connection. It's amazing. Yet it's a strange thing. Perfectly strange condition. Beautifully strange connection. Perfectly perfect :)